I miss Joshua.
I'm not cheating on Aldo per say; this post is not about me loving someone else romantically and wishing Aldo away. I'm still dating Aldo and I completely love him. I've talked with Aldo about this a bit, and he has helped me through and given me support.
Thanks Aldo ♥ ♥ ♥ I aim and attempt to not have this entire entry to sound emo nor am I searching for attention; I wrote this to put my thoughts together and release my (undeclared coherent) appreciation for someone who briefly gifted me with comfort.
( It's just that... )So, this is my closure. Anne wrote me a letter before I left the Philippines in 2001, and asked me to move on. I have kept it in my wallet from that day forward and read it periodically. (Side note: I also keep a note my goddaughter wrote to me before I started college, it brings me courage and work ethic) It honestly hurts, undergoing this closure without any other knowledge but my own. I'd make an apology statement, but that won't improve my closure.
I don't think I will ever see Joshua again in my entire life, but it would be nice if my message of thanks reaches him. He likely does not know (nor would he ever know) how much he helped me out when I needed someone the most, when I just wanted someone to understand. I still wish we could be friends again, but after all these years, I'm still afraid I'm going to lose him all over again.
But, no matter how it ends, you will never forget the happy memories of your first friend.